Hello gorgeous !
I hope you’re doing beautifully in this admittedly very sexual and intense new moon in Scorpio.
Unlike the picture above would have you imagine, I am writing you from the bottom of my couch, lying under my blanket, and, full disclosure, having a quite intense episode of period pain. You probably get what I’m saying, and I’m pretty sure you’ve experienced it firsthand many times before, if not right now too!
And so, truth be told, I don’t exactly feel as beautiful as the glamorous photo accompanying this article this red hot minute. One could argue that models don’t look like their pictures anyway (and trust me, I know because this has been my job for almost two decades at this point!), but that’s a whole other conversation. I’m sure I have a lot of models following, and as I’m craving disgusting foods — whether it be pizza or trigger warning, chicken liver and hummus, as well as extra dark chocolate and almonds (it’s the iron for me!) — and nice words about the shape of my body and my facial bone structure softly whispered to my ear by a man I’d have sex with all day, I’m also really feeling the urge to wear plushy sweaters and warm socks, and to sport a no brow, no lashes look because, you know, la period (yes, I’m French, and period is a feminine word in my language, duh!). Not exactly on brand and sexy AF, if I may say so myself!
And this is coming from the same woman who was having FaceTime sex (more on this later, I promise!) with her man less than 24 hours prior! At this point, you might be asking yourself if I have a case of cyclothymia going on for myself, and I don’t blame you, babe. But I have to say, even though I am an actual award-winning adult performer (which still baffles me sometimes), what I did have a case of was anxiety around my period bloat, my period skin coupled with the aforementioned no brow look, and, bonus, the realization that my pussy was far from shaved. But luuuuv has the power to blee blah blue, and The Significant Other™ was feeling unwell that night, so what’s a Manifestation Muse to do? Send PG-18 material, of course! Followed by a FaceTime call that TSO (it’s The Significant Other for shorts) first declined — but was quick to return (see fig. 1!).
Aside from showing off my stellar sexting skills worthy of my Scorpio Mercury here, what I’m trying to say to you is that you will find the strength that transcends all fears and doubts when you step out of ego frequency and into quantum love (something I learned from Dr. Laura Berman), to slip into something a little more comfortable, or a little more naked in this case, and distract the beloved from a bad case of seasonal flu. If this sounds dramatic to you, please remember that I am on my period and that I am low key reveling in the dramatic storytelling that is pouring out of me! ❤️🔥
And so, what I want to share with you here is how beauty really doesn’t lie in the eye of the beholder. I believe it is born in the heart of the creator — aka, ourselves, babe! It is absolutely up to us to shift our frequency and to vibrate so high that the world becomes beautiful, starting with us, of course. It is absolutely up to us to energetically decide that we are beautiful and, as a result, to be exactly that. Isn’t that beautiful?!
Enough said. If my written words haven’t gotten you there already, I know my spoken word will. And so it is my pleasure and privilege to share with you my latest riff, How Beautiful, as a bonus episode of the show. Listen on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, and wherever you listen to podcasts, or click below to download it for free!
With love and beautiful vibes always, mwah! 💋✨